Its Just Wasn't Right

Arrrgh...i dunno what happen to me...i m now in a serious moody...well...mood...
Problem is I dunno what is bothering me...suddenly i got this feeling I am freakingly empty...lost...alone. I don't feel like I am myself. Why?

Recent events maybe roots to it...First of all, my roomie was in a series of unfortunate events...which I seriously sympathise...which of course dampens the mood of Room H G-14...which of course had an impact on me....sigh...its just wasn't right

Then, I catch cold, had flu, muscle aches like hell...and still I have classes to go...then I have Orientation Night to ponder about....and of course most of all...final exams...which is very very near...and worst still...I m not doin' anything about it...Where is inspiration? It is suppose to be here with me whenever the time comes..but now? Its just wasn't right...

I m talking lesser to my friends...I dunno,...i felt i wanted to be alone...yet...i miss their chatters and laughs....it just wasn't right...

On top of everything....I MISS HOME!!

I am homesick....i dunno why is this happenin to me esp its been one year i've settled down in KL....the feeling just came suddenly....i had to admit...i felt like crying....i miss home....sob....i miss my family.....I dunno why...but probably to think that everybody is working...including my sister ...just to support me for my studies...makes me aprreciates them more...yes, economically, its been hard...but to think that my mom, which has been a responsible housewife ever since I was born...suddenly have to find a job...and my sis, who have to work so young, at a age where I am still studying...and my dad...who is suppose to be retired, but is still earning hard to support the family...For me ....it seems to be very hard for me to accept...For me....its just wasn't right.

And here I am, in KL, spending money, talking about no inspiration to study...I felt so F*** up...worthless....

Its just wasn't right.


Epilogue:
After a series of diagnosing, it seems that I am in a situation, which people term it as---- Depression.