Keeping tabs on emotion is hard work. The fact that I don't put much effort on exploring them has made it more difficult to express or describe it. Ironically, my thesis was based largely on observation of emotions and behaviours. Just great.
I used to put a lot of emotions into things. I was passionate. But as life progressed, it seems like I rather take the rational and logical route of thought to explain situations and life-events. I found it easier to manage life. Easier to move along, get over and letting go. The Laissez Faire style did a lot of good to untangle the complications.
So eventually, there are certain emotions that I decided to "discard". Naturally, if you need to rediscover it, hard work is needed. Cues and hints are harder to perceive and analise. Frustrating, I know. But, it does make living everyday life more bearable. Short term at least.
I reread the post and I do know it is mostly random musings, without a direction, but that is what personal blogs are. Additionally, language and especially writing ability have dwindled. I have no idea how to proceed with my Masters if like this.
Anyway, signing off till next time.
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